I need to start blogging again.
It's been a rough year. I have had major clinical depression most of my life, but it has been under control with medication. The depression gradually, insidiously started taking control of my life again about seven months ago. It actually got to the point where DH and my mom took me to the ER for fear that I would harm myself. Yeah, it was bad. As always, I could function really well at work (I'm teaching at a preschool now), but at home, all I wanted to do was sleep. Sleep was my escape. And I wanted to escape pretty much whenever I was not teaching.
So I started therapy again. And got a psychiatrist to adjust my meds - he actually added another one to what I was already taking. In case I ever questioned if depression is a chemical thing, I do not questions it any more. Cognitive Behavior Therapy was new to me, but it definitely helped. However the biggest thing that helped was that new medication. Within a few days of starting it, the weight began lifting off my shoulders.
Know this song? "I can see clearly now the rain is gone . . ." That's what it feels like.
I can function again.